Tripped & Fell in love with him

Buhbye...

Fri, 28 Nov 2003 15:51:41 GMT

I got a new journal: _brokenpromises

Please add me.. :D

So this is my last entry...aw.. kinda sad.

Fri, 28 Nov 2003 15:01:29 GMT

Can I please have a livejournal code. Somebody took mine with out asking. Yeh their cool. And if you go to my jernal to see my "new background" its proably not going to be there cuz my computer is stupid. But seriously i need a code.. please help!

MY NEW BACKGROUND

Fri, 28 Nov 2003 02:35:53 GMT

Because of my wonderful cousin, I have the prettist journal.. :D So right now I'm really happy, I still want to make some minor alterations but I need some help. Leave me a comment on what you think about my new journal.

Much ♥

Ash

Happy Holidays

Thu, 27 Nov 2003 16:20:06 GMT

HAPPY THANKSGIVING EVERYONE!!!!!

AHHHHHHHH

Wed, 26 Nov 2003 16:59:27 GMT

I seriously am going to fucking hate Thanksgiving.

Reasons:

1. My mom made a "seating chart" and wont let me sit by anyone I want to. Except Mike. We have to sit by some stupid old people that I never even met before.

2. I tried to change the seating chart and I got bitched at for a fricken 1/2 hour.

3. My mom told me and Mike that we had to make Jello. So Jim just went to the store to get Jello which is A HALF MILE F/ MIKES HOUSE and he wont stop to pick him up cuz hes a STUPID FUCKING ASSHOLE.So now he going to buy Jello and Im not even going to make it.

4. Mike has a fucking stick up his ass and has been bitching at me all fucking morning. And I'm about to kill him. Hes stupid, I told him I had another call and he wouldnt shut up so i just clicked over and he hung up and called me back and started yelling at me....riiiiiiiite.. fag. But when ever someone is on his other line he leaves me on the phone for fucking 15 minutes. Asshole.

5. My mom is making me seriously clean everything and I'm about to hit her in the face. Jim and Kelsey arnt doing fucking anything but noooo I have to clean everything. Sorry but I'm not the one who invited 33 people over for Thanksgiving. Not my problem clean the fucking house yourself.

6. Nobody is bringing anything that I like to eat.. their bringing all yuckie foods. I swear my mom told me what everyone is "supposed" to bring and Ew. This Thanksgiving I'm going to starve.

7. Then my mom told me tommarow I have to wake up early so we can "finish cleaning" Uhh sorry but I think I did enough damn cleaning today.

8. And tommarow after everyone leaves I know I'm going to get stuck doing the dishes. And I swear to god I'm not doing them. Fuck that. Use paper plates.

I swear I'm soooooo angry right now.. >:O

And tonite I have to babysit my cousin. Yippie. Im sooo ~~excited~~

Well I'm going to go, because I feel like making a mess for my mom to clean up. :D
That should brighten up my day.

- ♥ -

Ashley Nichole

:D

Wed, 26 Nov 2003 14:02:28 GMT

Jamie just taught me how to make ♥ which are very prettie.. thanks babe!!!

I still really need a background. Please if you can fricken help me I would hump your foot.. seriously ;)

Much ♥-

Ashley Nichole

Mon, 24 Nov 2003 18:49:55 GMT

Seriously can someone please make me a christina agulera*sp?* background.. god i realllllllllllllllly want one and i'd really appericate it.. leave me a comment if you can help!!! PLEASE... IM BEGGIN YA!

Ashley

Mon, 24 Nov 2003 04:09:30 GMT

LAYER ONE
Name: Ashley Nichole LaFata
Birth date: January 29, 1988
Birthplace: South Macomb Hospital
Current Location: Roseville, MI
Eyes: Blue
Hair: Brown
Height: 5"4
Righty or Lefty: Righty
Zodiac Sign: Aquarius

LAYER TWO
Your heritage: Italian / Indian
The shoes you wore today: Slippers
Your weakness: Love
Your fears: Clowns/drowing/breaking up/being alone
Your perfect pizza: Just cheese

LAYER THREE
Your thoughts first waking up: I just hit the button one more time....
Your best physical feature: eyes
Your bedtime: Humm btw 10/10:30
Your most missed memory: 8th grade summer

LAYER FOUR
Pepsi or Coke: Diet coke
McDonald's or Burger King: Burger King
Single or group dates: Single
Adidas or Nike: Both
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Ew, i hate ice tea
Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate
Cappuccino or coffee: Cappuccino.

LAYER FIVE
Smoke: Nope
Cuss: Depends on what im talking about
Sing: Sometimes, but im not good.
Take a shower everyday: Nope, sorry. J/k. hell yeh
Have a crush: Shhh if he finds out the secret will be gone *mike*
Do you think you've been in love: I am in love
Want to go to college: Yeh
Want to get married: Yeh
Believe in yourself: not really
Get motion sickness: Ew, carnival rides :/
Think you're attractive: Sometimes
Think you're a health freak: Not @ all.
Get along with your parents: sometimes
Like thunderstorms: eh..they scare me
Play an instrument: nope

LAYER 6:
In the past month....
Gone to the mall?: Yeh, mike brian joey
Eaten an entire box of Oreo: I dont like oreos
Eaten sushi: sick. Plain sick
Been on stage: does drama class count?
Gone skating: nope
Made homemade cookies: Nawwww
Gone skinny dipping: To cold
Dyed your hair: no, but thought about it
Stolen anything: nope :D

LAYER SEVEN: Ever...
Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: yes.
Been called a tease: Yeh
Gotten beaten up: In 4th gr. a 7th grader punched me in the face & i cried :(

LAYER EIGHT
Age you hope to be married: Around 19/20
Numbers and Names of Children: boy: Nicholas, Anthony, Dominic Girl: Madison Angel, Christine
Describe your dream wedding: Mike and I know, but you dont cuz you'll take our idea. :P
How do you want to die: Asleep in my bed when im 100 laying in my babys arms.
Where you want to go to college: Humm UofM, NYU, UCLA, Chicago's Art Institute.
What do you want to be when you grow up: Interior Designer
What country would you most like to visit: London/Paris/Italy

LAYER NINE: In a guy/girl...
Best eye color? Blue/Green. Mikes eyes
Best hair color? Dark
Short or long hair: Short but, on mike kinda long?
Height: Tallllllllllllll
Best weight: not fat.. Mike :)
Best articles of clothing: Boxers - god, unbelivably sexxy
Best first date location: Movie, Romantic dinner, beach.. yeh like it would happen
Best first kiss location: Beach

LAYER TEN
Number of drugs: Just Mary Jane
Number of people I could trust with my life: Definatly 1 for sure, humm
Number of CDs that I own: IDK.
Number of piercings: Ears, 3 in one 2 in other
Number of tattoos: None, to scared
Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: Once maybe 2x?
Number of scars on my body: quite a few
Number of things in my past that I regret: To many

I stole that f/ Marisa.

Today, Mike and I had a really good conversation. God i just love him sooooo much, I dont know what i would do if i ever ~~lost him~~ He is seriously so wonderful and amazing Hes definatly my dream come true <3333333 <33333 <333333

Congrats JV and Varsity, I heard everyone did a wonderful job :D

I REALLY NEED A BACKGROUND PLEASE COMMENT IF YOU CAN HELP!!!!

G'nite Everyone:

Much love--

Ashley

Mon, 24 Nov 2003 00:34:22 GMT

congrats ladies you did reallllly good @ palace, 7th isnt bad @ all. much love

CAN SOMEONE PLEASE MAKE ME A BACKGROUND FOR MY JERNAL I WOULD REALLY APPERICATE IT

--Ashley Nichole

p/s cant wait for thanksgiving :D

Still sick

Sun, 23 Nov 2003 14:05:27 GMT

What I've been doing since I've been sick

_+ Sleeping a lot.
_+ Drinking only Tropicana orange juice
_+ Eating barely anything
_+ Went to the Dr. and they took 3 TUBES OF BLOOD FROM MY FRICKEN ARM
_+ Only threw up once
_+ The most exciting thing i did was go to the grocerey store :D

Well thats pretty much all i've done while being sick. oh, my dr. wants to see me on monday or tuesday and says i wont be back in school until DECEMBER 1ST what the hell is that shit? Oh and if your wondering what fricken diease i have its mother effin MONO. God. :(

today is the cheerleading competition: @ Palace.. and the girls are already there. With out me :( :( i was really looking forward to going. But good luck girls you'll do fine. I wish you the best *1st place*

Much love:

Ashley Nichole

Sun, 23 Nov 2003 03:38:17 GMT

I LOVE MIKE

Good Luck Ladies Tommarow :D

new stuff

Sun, 23 Nov 2003 01:11:39 GMT

I just found out how to use some new stuff and i want to see how it works::

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I just found out how to use some new stuff and i want to see how it works::

<body background=IMAGE URL"bgproperties="fixed>

I <font color=red> love </font color> Mike

<font face= "cosmic sans">

<marquee behavior=alternate>I HATE LAZY PPL</marquee>

<marquee direction= up>ERRRRRRRR</marquee>

<span style=background:pink>omg</span>

<TABLE STYLE="filter:glow(color=pink,strength=10)"><TR><TD><center>Ashley</TABLE>

<DIVID="wavetext"style="width:7;height:5;font-size:8pt;color:pink;filter;wave(add=0,phase=4,freq=5,strength=2)">i love you</DIV>

<BIG>I WANT A FUCKING BACKGROUND AND IM REALLY MAD.. SOMEBODY PLEASE CALM ME DOWN AND JUST GET ME A FRICKEN BACKROUND</big>

Sat, 22 Nov 2003 21:07:25 GMT

haven't you noticed my changed?
haven't you seen how i cry
haven't you seen all i want to do it die
haven't you seen how i don't talk
haven't you seen how i don't smile
haven't you seen the way i write
haven't you seen i'm alone
haven't you seen me fall
haven't you seen i'm not happy

This was in luvyou143 journal. And i really liked it. So i put it in mine, but im giving her props.. its really good. :)

Sat, 22 Nov 2003 19:45:00 GMT

current bullshit

_+ I have mono, not fun. I wont be back in school until at least Dec 1. Ekks. Thats a loooong time.

_+ I feel like some of my good friends hate me because of what i've seen in their jernals? Okay. Thats nice :D

_+ Cheerleading. God, i want to be able to go to palace sooo bad, I want to be there for my team but yeh i had to go and get fricken mono. Yay, well good luck ladies im sure you will do fine, i really hope so. And im sorry i couldnt be there.

_+ Boyfriend. Enough said. :(

_+ I'm looking forward to Thanksgiving *only thing* but I'm sure somebody will go and ruin it anyway.

_+ Mike got me a colledge thing f/ his school for a school in Chicago, to become an interior desiger. Wahoo someone cares.

_+ Thinking about making a change in my life. A prettie big change but it wont affect some people because obviously i dont matter. So I think im going to talk to my mom about it to nite. ¿¿¿~~ABHS~~???

_+ Im trying to make my boyfriend happy. Obvioulsy he doesnt want to be happy or Im just not good enough to make him happy. Hey what the hell either way I loose.

_+ Being sick sucks. I hate it. So all you little fuckers who drank after me in school AFTER I TOLD YOU NOT TO but you didnt care cause you were "thirsty" haha, prepare for the worst. Cuz your prolly gonna get it. Maybe not if your lucky.

_+ Can anyone re-do my jernal im really sick of it and im about to kick the computer screen cuz i think its sooo ugly. No offense sanner i liked it a while ago but now i just dont. But i'd really appreciate a new backround :) Maybe something Red and Black??

_+ Going to go and call Mike because i feel like seeing what hes up to.

Buhbye ya'll

Much Love:

Ashley Nichole

Mon, 17 Nov 2003 00:19:16 GMT

On the WBAM FM morning show in Chicago, the DJs play a game
where they award winners great prizes. The game is called "Mate
Match." The DJs call someone at work and ask if they are married
or seriously involved with someone. If the contestant answers
yes, he or she is then asked 3 random yet highly personal
questions.

The person is also asked to divulge the name of their partner
(with phone number) for verification. If their partner answers
those same three questions correctly, they both win the prize.

One particular game, however, several months ago made the City
of Big Shoulders drop to its knees with laughter and is possibly
the funniest thing I've heard yet. Anyway, here's how it all
went down:

DJ: "Hey! This is Edgar on WBAM. Have you ever heard of 'Mate
Match'?"

Contestant: (laughing) "Yes I have."

DJ: "Great! Then you know we're giving away a trip to
Orlando,Florida if you win. What is your name? First only
please."

Contestant: "Brian."

DJ: "Brian, are you married or what?"

Brian: "Yes."

DJ: "Yes? Does that mean you're married or you're what?"

Brian: (laughing nervously) "Yes, I am married."

DJ: "Thank you. Now, what is your wife's name? First only
please."

Brian: "Sara."

DJ: "Is Sara at work, Brian?"

Brian: "She is gonna kill me."

DJ: "Stay with me here, Brian! Is she at work?"

Brian: (laughing) Yes, she's at work."

DJ: "Okay, first question - when was the last time you had sex?"

Brian: "She is gonna kill me."

DJ: "Brian! Stay with me here!"

Brian: "About 8 o'clock this morning."

DJ: "Atta boy, Brian."

Brian: (laughing sheepishly) "Well..."

DJ: "Question #2 - How long did it last?"

Brian: "About 10 minutes."

DJ: "Wow! You really want that trip, huh? No one would ever have
said that if a trip wasn't at stake."

Brian: "Yeah, that trip sure would be nice."

DJ: "Okay. Final question. Where did you have sex at 8 o'clock
this morning?"

Brian: (laughing hard) "I, ummm, I, well..."

DJ: "This sounds good, Brian. Where was it at?"

Brian: "Not that it was all that great, but her Mom is staying
for a couple of weeks..."

DJ: "Uh huh..."

Brian: "...and the Mother-in-law was in the shower at the Time."

DJ: "Atta boy, Brian."

Brian: "On the kitchen table."

DJ: "Not that great?? That is more adventure than the previous
hundred times I've done it. Okay folks, I will put Brian on
hold, get his wife's work number and call her up. You listen to
this. (3 minutes of commercials follow.)

DJ: "Okay audience, let's call Sarah, shall we?" (touchtones
ringing)

Clerk: "Kinkos."

DJ: "Hey, is Sarah around there somewhere?"

Clerk: "This is she."

DJ: "Sarah, this is Edgar with WBAM. We are live on the air
right now and I've been talking with Brian for a couple of hours
now."

Sarah: (laughing) "A couple of hours?"

DJ: "Well, a while now. He is on the line with us. Brian knows
not to give any answers away or you'll lose. Sooooooo...do you
know the rules of 'Mate match'?"

Sarah: "No."

DJ: "Good!"

Brian: (laughing)

Sarah: (laughing) "Brian, what the hell are you up to?"

Brian (laughing) "Just answer his questions honestly, okay? Be
completely honest."

DJ: "Yeah yeah yeah. Sure. Now, I will ask you 3 questions,
Sarah. If your answers match Brian's answers, then the both of
you will be off to Orlando, Florida for 5 days on us. Disney
World. Sea World. Tickets to the Magic's game. The whole deal.
Get it Sarah?"

Sarah: (laughing) "Yes."

DJ: "All right. When did you last have sex, Sarah?"

Sarah: "Oh God, Brian....uh, this morning before Brian went to
work."

DJ: "What time?"

Sarah: "Around 8 this morning."

DJ: "Very good. Next question. How long did it last?"

Sarah: "12, 15 minutes maybe."

DJ: "Hmmmm. That's close enough. I am sure she is trying to
protect his manhood. We've got one last question,

Sarah. You are one question away from a trip to Florida. Are you
ready?"

Sarah: (laughing) "Yes."

DJ: "Where did you have it?"

Sarah: "OH MY GOD, BRIAN!! You didn't tell them that, did you?"

Brian: "Just tell him, honey."

DJ: "What is bothering you so much,Sarah?"

Sarah: "Well, it's just that my Mom is vacationing with us
and..."

DJ: "She saw?"

Sarah: "BRIAN?!"

Brian: "No, no I didn't..."

DJ: "Ease up there, sister. Just messing' with your head. Your
answer, please?"

Sara: "Dear Lord...I cannot believe you told them this."

Brian: "Come on, honey, it's for a free trip to Florida."

DJ: "Let's go, sister. We ain't got all day here. Where did you
do it?"

Sarah: (short pause) "In the ass."

(long, long pause)

DJ: "We'll be right back after a word from our sponsors."

Mon, 17 Nov 2003 00:09:14 GMT

Whats the point?

Eh?

Sat, 15 Nov 2003 04:16:44 GMT

Spent the day with Mike and his friends. Mike and I had a really great day, which is very unusual, so i was really happy. I got dropped off at Brians house and we just chilled there and stuff and I ate some candy that Brians mom gave me. Then everyone went into "the shed" ***all must bow to the shed*** and they were doing some ::bad things:: which will not be mentioned so Mike and I stood in the street and just stood there basically. Then everyone went inside.. Ashley Ford made me a Get Well Soon Card :D which made me really happy. I <3 her. Then we just chilled in Brians room and everyone played "Grand Theft Auto" Oh, how exciting. LOL. And I talked about getting a boob job, but i was basically talking to myself cuz no one was listening. Oh/well. :) Then @ 7 Brians mama drove us home. Me and Mike watched Harry Potter #2 in his T.V room for a lil. Then we went upstairs to "watch" Kate and Leapold, prettie good movie. Then at like 10:30ish Mikes mom drove me home, but we stopped at the store to get laundry soap and hot chocolate, but i didnt want any. Now im sitting here, getting ready to go to bed. Cuz i have cheerleading at 8 in the fricken morning. Ew. So, yeh. OH--- one more thing i called ~~KATIE~~ and shes in fucking port huron for the weekend.. errr.. that angers me greatly! God i want to hit her w/ a brick. >:O

Tommarows Plans:

- Practice 8-10
- Hair Cut??
- Movies/Elf ??
- Hanging out w/ mike and maybe "da guys"
- Not sure what else

G'nite everyone..

Lots of Love-

Ashley Nichole

Fri, 14 Nov 2003 20:59:43 GMT

Last Person Who...

.x. Slept in your bed - Me. :]
.x. Saw you cry - Mike
.x. Made you cry - Mike
.x. Spent the night at your house - OHH gosh, Homecoming, Mike
.x. You shared a drink with - Mike n his friends
.x. You went to the movies with- No clue
.x. You went to the mall with - Mike, Brian, Joey, Brian's mom
.x. Yelled at you - Mike
.x. Sent you an email - shoot i hate email

Have Your Ever...

.x. Said "I love you" and meant it?- Everyday
.x. gotten into a fight with your walrus?- If I had one im sure i would fight w/ it
.x. Been to New York? - No, but im supposed to go for my b/day
.x. Been to Florida? - Yehhh alot
.x. California? - nope :(
.x. Hawaii? - No i wish
.x. Mexico? - Nahh
.x. China? - Hahah NO I hate chinese people
.x. Canada? - yeh sorta
.x. Danced naked - HEHE yeh
.x. Dreamed something really crazy and then it happens the next day? - kinda
.x. Stalked someone? - unfourtantly ::sal::

Pick One...

.x. Apples or bananas? - Apples
.x. Red or blue? - Red
.x. Walmart or Kmart? - Walmart
.x. Math or English? - Math
.x. radio or CD? - Cd
.x. drawing or painting? - Paint
.x. High school or college?- COllege

The Last Few Questions...

.x. Last time you went out of the state - This summer *cedar point*
.x. Lucky number - 2
.x. Things you like in a girl/guy - most of the qualities mike has
.x. Weirdest thing about you? - I have a lot of mood swings. I get really bitchy for no reason, and I dont even mean to
.x. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? - Yeh, a'course *michael*
.x. What do you think of ouija board? - Damn liar
.x. What book are you reading now? - None
.x. What's on your mouse pad? - Dont have one
.x. Favorite board game? - monoply
.x. Favorite magazine? - Seventeen. Cosmopalitan
.x. Favorite sound?- Music
.x. Worst feeling in the world? - Heartbreak
.x. What is the first thing you think when you wake in the morning? - I wanna go back to bed..
.x. Do you like scary or exciting rollercoasters - Both
.x. How many rings before you answer? - Depends on how fast i get to the phone
.x. Future daughter's name? - Madison Angel
.x. Future son's name? - Dominic Nathan
.x. Chocolate or vanilla?- Chocolate
.x. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? - Silky
.x. If you could have any job you wanted, what would it be? - Actress//model
.x. What are you going to do after you finish this survey? - Eat
.x. What was the last food you ate? - French Frie
.x. you bored? - Just a little...
.x. How many buddies are on? - im not on right now
.x. Last movie you saw? - Jackass

Yeh, I'm just a wee bit bored. LOL BUt yeh , im going to go and see mike today and yeh. I dont know how things are gonna be, he seemed really mad at me on the phone ICK. i hate when we fite. :(

But yeh,

Lots Of Love:

Ashley Nichole

Sat, 08 Nov 2003 13:43:11 GMT

Omg, i think im dieing. OHHHHHH . i dont feel good :X

::extremely sick::

Fri, 07 Nov 2003 20:40:12 GMT

Im fucking sick of everything and everyone.. not including my friends. Thank god for them or i'd be fucking dead. Seriously everyone else can fucking shoot themselves in the ass.

survey

Mon, 03 Nov 2003 23:38:16 GMT

*. . . W O U L D Y O U R A T H E R . . .*
1) pierce your nose or tongue? tongue
2) be serious or be funny? funny
3) drink whole or skim milk? eww
* . . . A R E Y O U . . .*
4) simple or complicated? Complicated
* . . . D O Y O U P R E F E R . . . *
5) flowers or angels? angels
6) grey or gray? grey
7) color or black-and-white photos? color
8) lust or love? love
9) sunrise or sunset? sunset
10) M&Ms or Skittles? skittles
11) rap or rock? rap
12) staying up late or waking up early? staying up late
13) TV or radio? radio
15) eating apples or oranges? apples

* . . . A N S W E R T R U T H F U L L Y . . . *
16) Do you have a crush? it's love
17) Who is it? Mike, shh don’t tell

* . . . D O Y O U P R E F E R . . . *
18) being hot or cold? hot
19) tall members of the opposite sex? Taller
20) sun or moon? sun
21) emeralds or rubies? emeraldes
2) left or right? right
23) having 10 acquaintances or 1 best friend? 1 best friend
24) sun or rain? sun
25) vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream? chocolate
26) boys or girls? boys
27) green beans or carrots? carrots
28) low fat or fat free? fat free
* . . . M I S C E L L A N E O U S . . . *
29) What is your biggest fear in the world? Sheesh to many
30) Kids or no kids? KID
31) Cat or dog? ew
32) Half empty or half full? half full
33) Mustard or ketchup? mustard
34) Hard cover books or soft cover books? hard
35) Newspaper or magazine? magazine
36) Sandals or sneakers? flip flops
37) Wonder or amazement? amazement
38) Red car or white car? red
39) Happy and poor or sad and rich? happy and poor
40) Singing or dancing? Dancing
41) Hugging or kissing? Depends
42) Corduroy or plain? plain
43) Happy or sad? happy!!!!!!!
45) Blondes, brunettes? My hair

* . . . A B O U T Y O U . . . *
What time is it? 6:29pm
Full name? Ashley Nichole LaFata
Nicknames: Ash, LaFata, Ashie, hey you
Names and ages of siblings? Michael-11 Jay-9 Kelsey-9 John-7 Anthony-5
Number of candles that appeared on your last birthday cake? 15
Date that you regularly blow them out? January 29
Pets? Ew, I hate my pets. Xcept Katie
Height? 5"4
Eye color? blue
Hair color? Brownish blonde
Piercing(s)? ears 5

* . . . W H A T D O Y O U W A N T . . . *
Where do you want to live? City
How many kids do you want? 1
What kind of job do you want? Interior Decorater//model
Do you want to get married? yes

* . . . W H I C H I S B E T T E R . . . *
2 doors or 4 (on a car)? 4
Coffee or ice cream? ice cream
Shampoo or conditioner? conditioner
Bridges or tunnels? tunnels
One pillow or two? one

* . . . W O R D A S S O C I A T I O N . . . * (first thing that comes to mind)
Rock? ::blank::
Green? hehe
Crying? me
Peanut? Dumbo
Roses? A caring boyfriend
Summer? UGh
Winter? Cold

* . . . F A V O R I T E S . . . *
Salad dressing? ranch
Color of socks? pink
Toothpaste? Aquafresh
Food? Everything, well almost
Toothbrush? piiink
Alcoholic drink? Smirnoff black
Non-alcoholic drink? Diet Coke

1 MINUTE AGO: doing this
1 DAY AGO: being with mike
1 WEEK AGO: No clue
1 YEAR AGO: me n mike 1month 1day

I HURT: constantly
I LOVE: Mike
I HATE: Heh, I cant say becuz it would ruin my plan muh ahha
I FEAR: everything painfull
I HOPE: we work things out
I FEEL: upset
I LISTEN: to noone
I HIDE: from myself
I DRIVE: I wish
I MISS: how things used to be
I LEARNED: alot
I KNOW: I we can get thru it, or at least I can
I WAIT: for him to understand
I NEED: to change
I THINK: to much ::over analyze::

Current Clothes: Red cheer shorts w/ name, black sports bra, Red Cheer shirt
Current Mood: upset//doubtfull//sad//concered//worried//depressed…. ect
Current Music: tv upstairs
Current Taste: spehgettie
Current Hair: up
Current Annoyance: Ew, that smell!
Current Smell: NO fucking clue
Current thing I should be Doing: my book report :X
Current Desktop Picture: something ugly ::not my comp::
Current Favorite: Nothin
Current Book: The sisterhood of the traveling pants
Current Movie In VCR: shooot DVD
Current Refreshment: Owe, im thirsty
Current Worry: everything
Current Crush: Mike

Sun, 02 Nov 2003 18:54:26 GMT

What do scissors do?

Sat, 25 Oct 2003 16:09:14 GMT

Yesterday:

+ Hung out with mike

+ met malinda carly amanda and eline. Ew.

+ Wrestled mike, i woulda won but vince grabbed my legs.. ::ohhh::

+ Bought ice cream f/ the icecream truck. Tasted like poop. :(

+ went back 2 mikes and ate chinese

+ Killers came to mikes house and scared the shit outta his mom.. lmfao.

+ Mom picked me up at 3:30 AM.

Today:

+ woke up @ 7:30 AM

+ went to practice, goodness. Dee learned how to flippen base everything... but im still telling. She did good tho, and we got alot accomplished. Carlas stunt looks sweet. :) :)

+ Went to my dads and did the dishes :X

+ came back to my moms and ate pizza rolls..

+ currently talking to mike.

Fri, 24 Oct 2003 20:18:53 GMT

Some of my "feelings"
***lyrics f/ songs***

I'm the one who:failed in life

I swallow razor blades and spit up blood, cut out my heart and gave it to my love, Hung myself with an extension cord, And dangled high above the wegie board

It's tearin' up my heart when I'm with you But when we are apart, I feel it tooAnd no matter what I do, I feel the painwith or without you

I can't take it anymore, Baby, it feels like we are running out of time

Now I cry alone in the dark

There's a thousand words that I could say

remember what you said to me
You were acting so strange
and maybe I was too blind to see
That you needed a change

Was it something I said
To make you turn away?
To make you walk out and leave me cold
If I could just find a way
To make it so that you were right here
But right now..

it's impossible for me to give you what you need
If you're always hidin' from me I don't know what hurt you
I just, I wanna make it right

Cos boy I'm sick and tired of trying to read your mind

How long can emotions keep on goin' up and down

Taking me for granted lately
Frankly, it's gotta quit

Half the time I realise
I seem to give more than I get
Funny how things seem to change
After a few years commitment

I was naïve
Your love was like candy
Artificially sweet
I was deceived by the wrapping

And it hurts my soul
Cos I can't let go
All these walls are caving in
I can't stop my suffering
I hate to show that I've lost control
Cos I, I keep going right back
To the one thing that I need to walk away from

I can't stop this ache
I'm addicted to your lure
and I'm feeling for a cure
Every step I take
Leads to one mistake
I keep going right back
To the one thing that I need...

What did I do to deserve
The pain of this moment

Thats all for now, yeh thats just how i feel, sorry if i bored anyone.

bye.

yeh

Fri, 24 Oct 2003 19:49:27 GMT

[current clothes ] jeans and red n white A&F Shirt
[ current mood ] pissed off//upset//sad//sick
[ current music ] nuthin
[ current taste ] nothing
[ current make-up ] cover up blush eyeliner mascarra & eye shadow
[ current hair ] up in a full pony tail
[ current annoyance ] everything
[ current smell ] umm nuthin
[ current thing i ought to be doing ] beating up katie
[ current desktop picture ] something ugly
[ current favorite group] eh?
[ current book you're reading] The sister hood of the traveling pants
[ current cd in cd player] mixed
[ current movie in vcr] Lil Rascles
[ current color of toenails ] french manicure
[ current refreshment ] nothing
[ current worry ] everything

last person
[ you touched ] hummmmm amanda?
[ you talked to ] my mom
[ you hugged ] da'phil
[ you instant messaged ] shiiit
[ you yelled at ] Mike
[ you kissed ] Mike

favorite
[ food ] Pickels and croutons
[ drink ] diet coke
[ color ] pink
[ album ] shiiit
[ shoes ] kswiss tounge twisters
[ candy ] carmellows
[ animal ] tropical fish
[ tv show ] Camp Jim
[ movie ] ummm
[ dance ] homecoming?
[ song ] humm
[ vegetable ] carrots
[ fruit ] raseberries
[ cartoon ] ed edd eddy

are you
[ understanding ] no
[ open-minded ] depends
[ arrogant ] eh
[ insecure ] most of the time
[ interesting ] I don't know am I?
[ random ] haha pretty much
[ hungry ] yeh
[ friendly ] no
[ smart ] can be?
[ moody ] yeh that should be my middle name
[childish ] as in immature, oh yeh
[ independent ] can be..
[ hard working ] if I'm interested in it, or if its worth something good
[organized ] NO
[ healthy ] umm no..
[ emotionally stable ] no
[ shy ] not really
[ difficult ] haha I'd say so
[ attractive ] eh?
[ bored easily ] not really, I can amuse myself most of the time
[ messy ] pretty much
[ thirsty ] somewhat
[ responsible ] no
[ obsessed ] no
[ angry ] extremely
[ sad ] yess
[ happy ] no
[ hyper ] can be, but not now
[ trusting ] no
[ talkative ] sometimes I don't know how to shut up
[ legal ] nope

who do you want to
[ kill ] katie carly malinda alicia
[ slap ] see above
[ get really wasted with ] myself
[ get high with ] umm dont care
[ tickle ] no one
[ kiss] mike
[ look like ] Christina Aguilara

Yeh, im bored cant you tell?

I seriously just dont know what the fuck to do anymroe. I cant take it. God, im soo confused. I just want him to understand me. Is that so hard? I guess so cuz he doesnt.

Bye.